On the Half Way Mark - 20 weeks

I'm now on my 20 weeks of pregnancy, a bit bored and can't wait to meet my baby. After going through the 1st 3 months of nauseaness, unwell and panic, now my energy level is back, get more time and energy to do more researching and reading. After talking to friends, I think it's a good idea to share what I've found to prepare myself to be the best mum for my baby.

Being 33 and had a couple of miscarriages, I'm very panic at the first few months of pregnancy, I really wish this baby could stay. So I tried to find every information I could, what to eat, what not to eat, to do...etc to prevent a miscarriage this time.

I even pray every day, after the previous miscarriages, I really believe that life is not controlled by us and we cannot make it happen if it's meant to be. Someone with family members that have a life threatening disease would know what I mean. A dear friend of mine has been diagnoised cancer recently and all we could do is to support her and do our best to let her feel the less pain possible, but we could not assure that she'll live for any amount of time, although modern medicine is so advance.

I was really sad about the miscarriages & was very nervous about this pregnancy in the first 3 months as one more miscarriage I'll need to be refered to a specialist. After talking to several people and by reading, as the doctor said, miscarriages is pretty commmon (1 in 5 or something in all pregnancy) and nature has its way to create a healty baby, it's not anyone's fault for the miscarriage. I learnt not to blame myself for the loss, and my partner asked me not to read too much if it makes me worry about this pregnancy, just let it be.

Info on miscarriage

Anyway, back to my boredom, I'll post things that I found on the internet & by talking with friends. Hopefully will better prepare myself to be a good mum this time.